I get a headache when I don’t write but the act of typing out my thoughts now makes me neauseus because I am so absolutely sick of my writing style. It has not evolved since I was an emo 21 year old blogger. I wish I had someone t0 tell me how to improve. My writing is either reflective of the past, anxious about the future, angry and/or whiny, repetitive and mixed in with random pop culture references. Case in point.
The only time I write well and funny is in e-mails, when I know I’ll get a reaction. Writing a long e-mail is easy – it is completely stream of consciousness. However when I force myself to write a page in MS Word or on a blog it’s often difficut to find the words.
My aspirations of being a writer are still lingering in the back of my mind but yet I do not do anything about it, because I don’t believe in my skills.
I have a headache today because I want to write but can’t. I wrote a 500 word e-mail to a friend, which I was pleased with.
Would writing in a blog help as opposed to MS Word, since my writing is out there for the public to see?
I tried having a funny, lighthearted blog but I felt that I often tried too hard to be funny.
I like to update my Facebook status often when a funny thought comes into my mind, but I don’t want to be a Facebook spammer.
Maybe I shouldn’t think about it too much and just write what I feel.
In my early 20s I woud often self-censor my writing and be as PC as possible because I didn’t want to upset anyone, but the writers that I love the most are those who have the convictions to say what most people don’t.
I should write about stuff that’s happened in my life, things I do with my friends, because I’m very scared to loose these memories.
Blog attempt part 10.
